10.19.2011
10.03.2011
October!
Its officially my favorite time of year :) Yyyyeessss! Well its been a couple weeks now I havent been hustling or working at this. Ive been focused on more unimportant and meaningless things, Now its a new month, time to get back on it. I will be starting my new other "pays the bills" job soon. I just hope I havent missed out on too much sugar because my personal life is going downhill. Bah...
9.19.2011
Out of commission for a week :(
I had a bad week last week. Explosions happened between me and my long time ex/fwb/bf/wtf ever we are and those explosions definitely burned some bridges. So I am coping with all that happened between us. Then I go out the night after all those explosions and I lost my fucking wallet. Not the purse, just wallet, or it was stolen by some cray bitch I know. I am not entirely sure. But I'm feeling pretty upset about it all. I need to get back on my game and not let these things get me down and keep me from doing my best. My self esteem is a little bruised and I will miss the man I have been going back and forth with for the past 3 years. He never knew about my sugar life and after all the twisted things we admitted we did to each other, thank GOD this never came out. But Its Monday now, I will be okay...*sigh* I need some man-hater music.
9.14.2011
Sooo...
After my bad-ish date recently, I have been hustling for a more promising one...Ill call him the young IT guy. Hes attractive and young. We met at a wine bar in the nice part of town, typical. At first I was not sure how this guy would be, as with any potential Daddy, but we ended up clicking even though I was honestly not really feeling it at first. We clicked and he invited me over to his home for more of a fun time. I stayed and because hes young I guess, he is into the party and drug scene. Which is fine with me, a young college student haha. We had a great time and by the time I left he had slipped a great deal of money into my purse....
Sometimes I like that, you just throw mad cash into my purse as a surprise, love it. Though there is a bit of trashy that comes along with it, its kind of prostitute-ish which I AM NOT, ever. I'm so open to talking about it freely, I wish sometimes Daddies would talk more about it than just doing the throw it in your purse thing, Love it but at the same time, its weird...Though I really liked him. I felt like we connected and I am 99.9 percent sure hes going to be seeing me again. So I guess it all worked out. One thing on sugar dates I usually discuss is HOW we both came to this kind of thing and what we like/dislike about it. I find that when you talk about that kind of stuff it shows more of who you really are and what made an experience bad vs good so that we ladies can kind of interpret that into something beneficial for us. Anyway, talking about that we seemed to be very compatible in our experiences and expectations of someone. So he had told me that his venture into this sugar world was really based on how lucky he was to be young, attractive, and successful so he can be more picky about who he chooses to meet. (me, an attractive college student) So we also discussed past relationships, actual relationships, where you're committed, and he said all his past recent relationships (since his divorce, like many), were girls my age, 20 somethings that he took care of. So obviously he can relate to a 20-something to be in a relationship with and ended up online... and hes attractive. I love it. Its always my policy to play hard to get whether its meeting a random cute guy at a bar- to sugar dates especially. Though I never want a relationship from this kind of thing, its far too complicated to dedicate that time to for me, but this is the first time I have felt a "perfect" connection with someone...Rather than meeting a Daddy and maybe its not all there, something is missing but not enough missing to not take up an offer, you know? So hopefully Ill be seeing Mr IT a lot. I make it policy to never get attached to any man though. I have had plenty of bad relationships with men my age/ a few years older that I have fallen in love with and we struggle to keep the relationship going because of typical relationship problems. That is why I love sugar dating so much, because usually no man there is looking for a "normal" relationship and they don't have the time or energy for all that BS. I love that there is discretion, secrecy, and the politics of it all. Ha. On my profiles, I usually try to be as up front as I can, that way when I get offers, it is clearly there for them to see before any interaction happens. I meet them and sometimes its different than what they tell me, like they want relationships vs a real Sugar Baby, but its probably my demeanor that makes the difference too. I'm not slutty, I don't act like a stripper or a prostitute that uses this as a backup. I treat first meeting as an interview of sorts, though much more flirtatious in nature lol. I keep a professional, funny, feisty, quirky, attitude until I feel comfortable enough to show more of who I really am (sensual, funny, pretty dang smart, feisty still, more silly... which they love) than just some young sad girl searching for easy money. We in this sugar world all have our own individual hustle on Sugar Daddies and what works for us but you should always feel comfortable with what you're doing, because in the end, its you who has to live with the choices you make, not them. The only real advice I have to give on life is to always make sure you provide for yourself, never rely on anyone, a man, your parents, a baby daddy, to get you anything you NEED to live. I only hope that other sugar babies like me out there have another job or some source of income from anyone other than an SD, because once someone gets into that need mentality, they do things they would not have done if it weren't for a situation they ended up in. Love.
Sometimes I like that, you just throw mad cash into my purse as a surprise, love it. Though there is a bit of trashy that comes along with it, its kind of prostitute-ish which I AM NOT, ever. I'm so open to talking about it freely, I wish sometimes Daddies would talk more about it than just doing the throw it in your purse thing, Love it but at the same time, its weird...Though I really liked him. I felt like we connected and I am 99.9 percent sure hes going to be seeing me again. So I guess it all worked out. One thing on sugar dates I usually discuss is HOW we both came to this kind of thing and what we like/dislike about it. I find that when you talk about that kind of stuff it shows more of who you really are and what made an experience bad vs good so that we ladies can kind of interpret that into something beneficial for us. Anyway, talking about that we seemed to be very compatible in our experiences and expectations of someone. So he had told me that his venture into this sugar world was really based on how lucky he was to be young, attractive, and successful so he can be more picky about who he chooses to meet. (me, an attractive college student) So we also discussed past relationships, actual relationships, where you're committed, and he said all his past recent relationships (since his divorce, like many), were girls my age, 20 somethings that he took care of. So obviously he can relate to a 20-something to be in a relationship with and ended up online... and hes attractive. I love it. Its always my policy to play hard to get whether its meeting a random cute guy at a bar- to sugar dates especially. Though I never want a relationship from this kind of thing, its far too complicated to dedicate that time to for me, but this is the first time I have felt a "perfect" connection with someone...Rather than meeting a Daddy and maybe its not all there, something is missing but not enough missing to not take up an offer, you know? So hopefully Ill be seeing Mr IT a lot. I make it policy to never get attached to any man though. I have had plenty of bad relationships with men my age/ a few years older that I have fallen in love with and we struggle to keep the relationship going because of typical relationship problems. That is why I love sugar dating so much, because usually no man there is looking for a "normal" relationship and they don't have the time or energy for all that BS. I love that there is discretion, secrecy, and the politics of it all. Ha. On my profiles, I usually try to be as up front as I can, that way when I get offers, it is clearly there for them to see before any interaction happens. I meet them and sometimes its different than what they tell me, like they want relationships vs a real Sugar Baby, but its probably my demeanor that makes the difference too. I'm not slutty, I don't act like a stripper or a prostitute that uses this as a backup. I treat first meeting as an interview of sorts, though much more flirtatious in nature lol. I keep a professional, funny, feisty, quirky, attitude until I feel comfortable enough to show more of who I really am (sensual, funny, pretty dang smart, feisty still, more silly... which they love) than just some young sad girl searching for easy money. We in this sugar world all have our own individual hustle on Sugar Daddies and what works for us but you should always feel comfortable with what you're doing, because in the end, its you who has to live with the choices you make, not them. The only real advice I have to give on life is to always make sure you provide for yourself, never rely on anyone, a man, your parents, a baby daddy, to get you anything you NEED to live. I only hope that other sugar babies like me out there have another job or some source of income from anyone other than an SD, because once someone gets into that need mentality, they do things they would not have done if it weren't for a situation they ended up in. Love.
9.12.2011
Oh mister millionaire,
I had a date tonight that I thought was going to be very promising, by the end it turned out to be kind of a dud. Even though I specifically say I am not looking for a boyfriend or husband out of this lifestyle, the men who apparently want that find me and somehow forget to mention that we dont have this in common despite talking about it. What is that about? Why would you waste your time with me when we aren't compatible in a pretty important way? We met for coffee, then invited me to dinner when coffee went well. We had dinner and it was a nice meal. I could tell from this 60 year old man hes obviously kind of lonely. He called me beautiful and very smart and mature for my age. Which all of those things I am hah... But it seemed like he was pretty happy to have me by his side, treating me uncomfortably girlfriend-ish. One thing I never seem to get over, are the strange looks you sometimes get by being a cute young woman hanging out with some old fuddy duddy. Eh, oh well. I learned a lot from him though in our few hours of meeting. Hes just one of those lucky people that life seemed to work out really well for. I could see by his hobbies that he probably needs a female companion in his life and I cant really do that, or else I would advertise I am looking for a relationship. His hobbies: collecting music boxes and rabbit figurines. However, he is undoubtedly very wealthy. I just felt weird when he was acting like a boyfriend figure. For one, we had just met, and that's weird for anyone, haha. Though the topic of money and assistance came up, always awkward but I tried to be upfront and honest about it. He didn't really have responses to it and then ended the night without any other mention of it or what the future holds for us, or about money. So I guess I do not really know where this is going or what I can expect from him for the price of acting like his girlfriend. Though he did express that he misses taking care of someone, who knows. And I thought this was interesting since today is the 12th of sept, he told me he had an office in the trade center on a floor the plane crashed into but luckily no one was there. Interesting, like I said, lucky guy.
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